I’m officially 21 weeks today. It’s so rewarding seeing the time count down. I’m not sure if it’s because it’s my second pregnancy or that I am distracted with a toddler but time feels like it’s flying by. 

We’ve decided to not find out our baby’s gender this time. There aren’t many true surprises in life and in an age of instant gratification, it’s almost exhilarating to wait. I’m also hoping the surprise will help in those last few hours before meeting baby. The “planner” side of me wanted to know. If it is a boy we should be set without having to get much of anything except diapers. If it’s a little girl, we will need a few things but I have friends that will share their girl things and Amazon is a click away. This baby I am trying to shop small businesses as much as possible. I feel the care and quality every time I shop small. 

I had bloodwork done this morning at the hospital and surprised myself with the questions I asked. The second time around I’ve found myself much braver and confident as a mother. At the same time, the longer I’m a mother the more I realize all that I don’t know. I pray for wisdom and a humble heart almost everyday and I guess that’s the way the Lord answers both of my prayers…through motherhood. I learn something everyday which is exhausting and rewarding at the same time. 

It’s had been the biggest joy to enter this phase of life. The last few weeks have been a lot of sleepless nights and teething baby but in the middle of it, my heart remains so grateful. (Even through some tears) 

Tell me, did you wait to find out your baby’s gender? I would love to know how you feel about it. We found out for Robert because after waiting 13 years for him, that was a big enough surprise. But when Daniel told me this could be our last pregnancy, I knew I wanted to experience what it’s like to wait as well. So excited to meet you baby dear!