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Welcoming Kyla -Dc Newborn

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I’m always amazed at what sweet clients I get to meet. It was a warm, spring evening when we shot Kyla’s one-month photos. We walked around the arboretum, picking flowers and finding nuts (or coconuts as Marina called them.) Enjoy a few portraits of this lovely family.

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Celebrating Mother’s Day…when my arms are empty

“Weep with those who weep.” Growing up I heard this verse many times. I was taught to care for people and love them during the hard times. But life and experiences have a way of showing me I have so much more to learn. I long to not just feel bad but to truly empathize. To care.

This year will mark 5 years of waiting for a baby. Years of empty arms and dimming hope. Mother

This year will mark 5 years of waiting for a baby. Years of empty arms and dimming hope. Mother’s Day is coming-and with it-all kinds of mixed feelings. One year I didn’t want to go to church to hear yet another sermon about Motherhood and be surrounded with friends and their children. But like most things…time heals. It never goes away but it does heal.                                                 “Grief can be the garden of compassion. If you keep your heart open through everything, your pain can become your greatest ally in your life’s search for love and wisdom.” -Rumi

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I have read the first part of this verse on Mother’s Day for the past few years: “Rejoice with those who rejoice.” How can I rejoice with all my friends and mothers when my arms are empty?! When some days the ache is so deep it just won’t go away! Rejoice.  I am here to tell you friends, you can! You can find joy. I claimed this verse even when my heart couldn’t. I now look forward to Mother’s Day. An entire day I can celebrate my own Mother and friends. Motherhood is so beautiful and somedays really hard. I respect my friends who put themselves last everyday.

 

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And yes, I still feel the ache but I wouldn’t trade what God has taught me about caring and celebrating with others for the world. He has softened me in places I never knew were hard. I now receive so much encouragement and support from my friends. The cards and texts have already started…dear friends letting me know they care and haven’t forgotten.

One of my favorite quotes of all time:

“Celebrate her success without questioning your own.” -Jenna Kutcher

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I believe every woman should have a chance to tell her story. In honor of all the wonderful mothers I know, I will be starting a new blog series: Stories of Motherhood. It will be a short interview of mothers from all different stages of life. Stay tuned! I have learnt when you embrace other’s gifts they feel like your own. Celebrate with them!

 

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Wherever you are in life my fiend, know you aren’t alone. Even in the dark, sad places there is hope and healing.           “Turn your worries over to the Lord. He will keep you going.” Psalm 55:22a

 

 

April 28, 2016 - 1:36 pm

Rhoda - Love this!! I have found that weeping with those that weep is often a lot easier than rejoicing with those that rejoice.. especially if they have what I want. Blessings!

April 28, 2016 - 2:57 pm

Mary C. Hartzler - Hi..Dear sister !! Your post is just so beautiful and refreshing. May the Lord bless you richly for accepting this season of your life. Love n prayers Mary Catherine Hartzler

April 28, 2016 - 4:14 pm

Shannon - Beautifully written. It is so hard to take head knowledge, apply it to the heart and then live it out. I pray this Mother’s day is precious for you!

April 28, 2016 - 6:15 pm

Celena Zook - I would enjoy getting your blogs! I am Darlene Troyer’s sister. We have been married 10 yrs an have no biological children but we have adopted a little boy an have a 2 yr old foster girl.

April 28, 2016 - 9:16 pm

Holly - I’m sorry. It’s an ache that doesn’t go away. It doesn’t have the finality of death because each month there is another chance of a miracle, that your wait might be over and the journey to motherhood beginning. Sometimes I wished that I could just accept infertility and no longer HOPE, hope hurt too much when it was unfulfilled.

And now I’ve changed camps. After 6 long years of infertility our empty arms were filled. We had a baby and another and another…and then adopted three times.

I’m so sorry for your hurt. Praying for God to fill that void.

April 28, 2016 - 10:37 pm

Crystal Troyer - Aww, God bless you for how you are usingyou are using your journey to glorify Him and bless others. I’m so blessed by reading this.

April 28, 2016 - 11:24 pm

Brenda - I can empathize with you. We were also childless for 5 years: but then God allowed me to become pregnant and we are now blessed with two sons. :) I would love to chat with you over coffee because I can sense your sensitive heart! Your choice to choose joy is inspiring and will bless others I’m sure!

   

You are Enough…

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I don’t know how many times I tell my friends “You are enough.” It doesn’t matter to me if the laundry isn’t finished when I come over or if there are dishes in the sink. (To be honest, it makes me feel more at home) But so many times what I say and believe in others; I somehow don’t believe myself. Two weeks ago I was so sick. I kept going, but after two weeks of being miserable, working 60 hours a week, and shooting a wedding solo; I was exhausted. I had two services the next day to help with at church and I wasn’t sure how I would get through. Then I got a text from a friend: “I hope you can rest and not feel guilty to do so. God didn’t create woman to be super girls that can pedal eternally without crashing!” I burst into tears. That’s exactly how I felt. Like I was on a bike pedaling as fast as I could without an end in sight. And the only one to blame was myself. It was exactly what I needed to hear! Gentle, yet firm affirmation from a friend, when I seem to think I can “do it all.” So many things can overwhelm us and in turn steal our joy. So today if you are overwhelmed or burnt out: take a deep breath, say a prayer, and claim back the joy that keeps us all going.